Growth

An experience of a lifetime.

I feel that in this season, I'm gonna grow more.

It was the right thing, and I'm glad I did it.

All that I went through last year led up to this point, and I did not lose the moment.

I read, I thought, I prayed, I waited, and I sought a lot of counsel and covering.

I lost a lot of sleep as well.

And God's grace covered.

The results - it's as best as it can be. Close to zero consequences, really.

Could've been much worse.

Thank You Lord (:

I am so challenged to pursue God's ways for my life that there's nothing else I desire now.

It's a good place to be.

It's been six years of dealing with heart issues, and I'm tired.

I sooo miss my J1 days when I was so carefree...

I'm glad it's over, and He's leading me on to something new.

I'm thinking missions.

DTS, Hong Kong. hehe

Always wanted to go there...

Maybe further studies, maybe work, maybe holiday...

But when KYN returned and she mentioned the HK base, it was like a lightbulb suddenly popping on top of my head!

"oh yeaaa" so I thought. Why didn't I think of that?

So yeah, maybe I'll do DTS next Jan.

Wait till I graduate at the end of this year first.

The whole incident led to a lot of breakthrough.

I feel freer talking to my parents now.

My Dad, he talked to me about his life.

He ACTUALLY talked to me about girls! haha!

I've always wanted a father who would teach me about these things... important life lessons you know.

Wish I had that since young.

But I'm in a fatherless generation. A lot of young people have it worse of.

I should be thankful, and I really am.

Breakthrough (:

In my personal life, I feel so much freer to be myself and live in the destiny He has called me to.

I feel freer to connect with people as well, especially those closer to my age.

I think I'm going crazy, but it's a good thing.

I feel so secure, and I know who I am.

And I believe I left an impact that day.

A life-changing impact, which I will continue to leave in the lives of every single person I meet.

Simply because I am a son of God.

It's not pride. It's faith.

I can't believe I'm so confident. Guess it's a first of many signs that Ivan is really becoming crazier.

And more stable and secure at the same time.

Weird, but it's happening. And I love it!!

God is good, and His intentions are always out to bless me with abundance and joy and freedom.

I just need to accept that it may not turn out the way I imagine it to be.

So now, I don't really care. Come what may.

God still loves me, and His lavishing sees no end.

And I'm only beginning to see it unveil.

It's so awesome. He's so awesome!

I'm so awesome :P muahahaha