Your love never fails

i need attention. badly. been sucking it off certain people lately, especially those closer to me. dunno if they can feel it, because i've been so good at being "good" and "mature".

somehow i'm believing the lie that things will be better if only others would think the world of me. silly me. it won't be. the tension between fear and hope. the fear of losing my appeal, and the hope of being free from this fear. i think my pride has carried me too far, such that i feel robbed when i don't get the glamour. foolish.

to be honest, i want people to like me. it's such a girly thing, and i wonder from whom i rubbed it off... my mum? Ivan, be a man.

but really, i do need attention, and the answer is obvious. i needed a pathway back to that secret place when i can be secure and at peace again. so this song came along:



nothing can separate
even if i ran away
Your love never fails

i know i still make mistakes but
You have new mercies for me everyday
Your love never fails

You stay the same through the ages
Your love never changes
there may be pain in the night but joy comes in the morning
and when the oceans rage
i don't have to be afraid
becase i know that You love me
Your love never fails

the wind is strong and the waters deep but
i'm not alone here in these open seas
Your love never fails

the chasm was far too wide
i never thought i'd reach the other side
Your love never fails

You make all things work together for my good


i don't need to be afraid. i don't need more attention. your love never fails.