And oh how He loves us so

its okay. everything will be alright.

i'm a guy, so i shouldn't be so emotional, right? just take it as a phase i need to go through and learn. though, i'm thankful it was kinda inferred rather than an in-your-face kinda declaration, which saves the embarrassment and awkwardness. its a sober wake up call. not rude tho. a gentle slap, i'd say. which makes me understand where i'm at, and pretty much define the next season i'm in. for that i'm thankful.

i guess sometimes getting our way prevents us from being aware of the truth, and interruptions like this helps bring reality to our laps, gently. i feel more real now, for some reason. of cos i'm sad, but i'm not angry or anything.

pretty amazed at how i can think such things while holding my tears immediately after the incident. despite my emotions, reality couldn't be clearer. what beautiful union of emotions and reality. it isn't always the case where feelings lead you to the truth. in fact, they don't most of the time. so for this i'm grateful too.

Lord, I pray that in this season I'll be made right with You. Train me in discipline, and guide me in developing my gifts to serve You alone. You alone are worthy of my devotion. In You I have strength. I know I'm not alone. Even if I ran away - as I have done a thousand times - Your love never fails.

And oh how He loves us so