Lord I surrender.

All the pains, disappointments, desires, dreams, hopes, plans, talents... even my next breath, I surrender to You. I'm tired of wanting to have my way all the time.

I surrender all my relationships, the strained and difficult ones. They are Yours to redeem. Even if You don't, You are still God, and I will abide. I learnt that it is not about what, who or how to change, but its about changing myself. My attitudes, my dependence on You, my spiritual walk, my desires, my priorities etc. Although it hits the hardest when it comes to the ones who are closest, I believe that when I look back in years to come, I will be thankful. Your love endures forever!

I am also thankful for certain things that did turn out well (: Certain people I can talk to, brothers and sisters who can listen, and who dare to tell me that I'm wrong and need to change, or who gently advice me to see things differently. People who may not seem really close at first, but when the rubber hits the road, they're just there (: And the encouragement they give... I'm so glad I can say this about... :P hehe!!!

Yeah, and the BIG issue, or so it seems... I TOTALLY take my hands off. I don't want to control. I want to be led by God. From my motivations to my actions, let everything be littered with the will and fingerprints of God Himself. In fact, He is the One. And whoever He sends my way should be pointing to that truth.

Cell retreat was awesome. Really. Awesome. Lord, You love us. You care for us and You pursue us with a fierce passion! I love You Lord. Let nothing come in between us, I pray. No idols. Give me a pure heart. I lift my soul up to You alone. Consume my total being, Jesus take control. I want to be lost in Your love forevermore.