sigh.... Xiangning (this acquaintant colleague) commented that I was cold, like, "freezing point", in her exact words, according to Alice. heh. just found out that Xiangyi also commented to Deborah (my boss) that I was kinda fierce also (to the kids, but maybe she got a shock out of it too?)... sigh...

I guess I'm kinda introvert by nature. Along the way, as I grew up, many people (friends of parents, aunties & uncles) commented that I can be really "quiet". That's true I guess. I'm not someone who feels comfortable opening up to people I'm not closed to, even in a social setting. Perhaps that's why I may appear cold to people who don't know me well.

Nevertheless, along the way, I kinda picked up social skills too, albiet with some (or much) difficulty and unnaturalness. heh I remember Gracia (hehe I bet you'll read this soon) complained I was "fierce" when she was sec 1, when I just felt tired or just thinking about stuff, and anger was totally out of my mind. So I had to work extra hard at learning how to be hyped up blah blah blah so as to satisfy her and the other kids.

Also, I somehow have this intrinsic expectation that people know how to connect with me in the "right way", if there's such a thing. Subtle exchanges based on eye contact and body language raher than mere words. So I guess, from my perspective, people ought to kinda fit into the right "posture" or "atmosphere" in terms of attitude in order to be able to connect with me.

Also, I guess I'm a deep person, and also a big-pictured one, so my outward view of things are usually based on the whole situation, rather than on the immediate circumstances. For example, when something needs to be done, I'll focus on how best to arrange everything, and in the process ignore certain quirks of people that may serve to slow me down, although I know I do not compromise relationship overall, but I just cannot entertain abrupt or petty demands for attention.

Anyways, freezing point, as many people may have experienced from interacting with me. Oh wells, God please help me to be more social, or do You prefer me this way? So help me God.